So what do you do when you take a step back from your life and realize that it's made a 180 degree turnaround? What do you do when you realize that you are such a different person from who you were that you no longer recognize who your closest friends were? Why is it that everyone will be there for you when you make a turn for the worst but they make you out as an enemy if you make a turn to better yourself?
So I haven't blogged in awhile, but I've had something on my mind for awhile now that I thought would make a good topic. Lately I've noticed that I buck heads with all my friends from middle school and I think I know why, I'm not depressed and pessimistic. When I was in middle school, I surrounded myself with the most depressing and angry people without even realizing it. Now that I'm in High school and now that I don't want to be like that anymore, they all seem to hate me. Was I never suppose to change? Was I always suppose to hate myself so much that I hated being alive? Was I suppose to continue to hurt myself and everyone around me?
Some things I just don't understand, these thing I don't care to.
